I’m trying to understand people better. The first thing I learned pretty quickly are that there are quite different opinions. I can deal with this pretty good, since it is what they believe and stand up for. I’m fine with that.

Yes I have generally big issues on dealing with new people. I’m someone who needs to observe first before I can manage how they could react on certain situations. If something comes up which could upset the other one I keep it quiet. This is, for me, sometimes not very healthy and time consuming.

On situations where I have a strong opinion for a certain topic that are very important to me; I try to tell that to the person or group. Why I do this? To hope that the other ones can respect that as well as I respect their opinions. This, sadly, goes not very well every time I speak up.

I think it leads to hefty misunderstanding because I write it in a quite aggressive tone. Every time I read my sentences again and again and hope that the other party will understand why I’m sometimes furios about something.

But mostly it backfires pretty quickly. The other party is upset, angry with me and this leads often to mistrust. Even when I try to iron it out, the damage is already done.

And every time I analyze what happened, to understand what I did wrong only to conclude that I should have not speak up about it. This sucks.

Yes it sounds pity I know that.

But a person which influenced me heavily always said “It is what it is” to everything which is out of reach of control. I need to try to live more by that.